And I hope if there is one thing I let go it is the way that we cope.
Getting ready to drive up to the casino and quit my job. I’ve been up since 8 or 9 yesterday morning and I went to the casino early because the TG Manager had asked me to come in early (at the last minute AGAIN) so I had to scramble to change appointments and moved them all - starting at 7 am this morning and then she never showed up to meet me so they put me on tables for almost 12 hours yesterday and then I had 2 hour drive home. But keep in mind that’s only about 2 hour gap between leaving the casino and my first client of the day this morning. Of the four days that I’ve worked there, they’ve changed and added to my schedule 3 times the day off or day before less than 24 hours notice where I’ve had to move clients around to accommodate them. They already knew that I had another job(s) and I’m going to school and wanted to work minimal, evening, WEEKEND hours. I’m not that bitch that can just drop everything for them and get nothing in return. I’m quitting on a holiday weekend, you fuck with me I fuck with you.
Got some chanel perfume bottle phonecases in today, so I’ll throw those up on storenvy ASAP. Still trying to adjust to the casino, still bumming hard at my lack of a life. Trying to keep my mind off of it but I’m working 5 days straight when I originally agreed upon 2 or 3 days a week when I got hired. So I’m just bitter as hell right now…
All The Rage Back Home - Interpol
Been going through a hard time trying to adjust my schedule and keep up with this new casino. I’m feeling like I’m sipping through the firehose a little bit especially since nothing is consistent here in terms of procedures or game protection. I can’t even get a straight answer as to what their fucking house shuffle is. And then come to find out they don’t even have poker tables which is the whole reason why I’m getting back into dealing to begin with. I’ve really been struggling the past few days as to what to do, its been giving me a lot of anxiety. I can feel myself starting to get fed up with their shit though and I hope I don’t pop off because I need them to see where I’m coming from and to only work me the hours that we agreed upon. On top of that I’m pretty rusty and I just feel like shit about myself. What little free time I have is spent practicing and I can see my skills getting better. Hopefully the answer will come to me in a few days because I feel like I’m losing my mind.
On my way up to work I am so fucking nervous I can’t even explain it. I’m freaking the fuck out. Showing up is half the battle I guess…
Truth Hurts | Addictive (feat. Rakim)
Truthfully Speaking (2002)
I forgot to do my #100happydays update yesterday. I have been super sick, I went out to eat with my fiance a few nights ago and I woke up with what I thought was the worst hangover ever and I didn’t even finish the one drink I had. I feel like I had been roofied and I’m not saying that jokingly. I have an audition today at a casino and I don’t know how I’m going to pull it together for this. Fingers crossed I do well.
Travie’s birthday was yesterday, we went shifter cart racing and out to lunch and dinner. I gave him Formula 1 tickets to see the races in Austin. I’ve never seen an f1 race in person before so this will be fun. He’s doing some event today and I’m trying to get some housework done and work on some spa projects. I cancelled a trip to Minnesota this weekend hopefully the money will come in anyway. Hope you all are enjoying your weekend. xx